What Now?

Restless.

That's how I would describe it.

It's a state of mind when you know you should be content and happy, but somehow, you're just not getting the same high that you used to get from all this adventure.

And by adventure, I mean life.

Somehow, 29 isn't turning out to be what we (me and some select friends) were told it would be. They said after your mid-twenties you would be more settled, would probably have yourself a husband and kids (well, at least one kid). Because of the anti-"flower power" revolution of my generation, however, people (most especially women) said NO to getting married early or prioritizing nest-building over their own independent empowered lives. We said YES to walking the path less travelled.

But where does this leave us? Because we let our minds lead us to early 'success' in terms of life's milestones, our emotions every now and then rebel and get the better of us. And we find ourselves thinking "Is this it?" "What next?" "So what?"

It was supposed to be a big hooplah that you got to travel around the world by age 30, take on life-changing adventures. But now that we've done it, experienced the peaks of exhiliration, and got back to safe ground, what now? No article I've read so far gave us the gist of what happens after "happily ever after" of fulfilling your desires and dreams.

Are we now supposed to go back to the well-trodden path? Should we continue braving the unknown, knowing full well that we don't know what lies in the next step? Should we just close our eyes and let our emotions rule us now that we know we've done most things we set out to do?

Someone tell me, what happens after the ending of a really good "book of life".

God, I guess Mads was right. Maybe for the new generation, the mid-life crisis comes around age thirty.

And the only way to appease my thoughts right now is to say, "hey, twenty years in this world ain't bad if it's the half mark of the rest of your life."

Not bad at all. But I'm still stuck at "What now?"